Waiting on love

I waited my entire life for you and when u came I was so happy, excited, in love, I thought, I finally found someone. I no longer had to look around and see how happy all my friends were and feel left out, I had someone now to. I no longer had to long for and admire what they had cause I now FINALLY! Had it to!

I gave u 4 years of my life, only to watch it all fall.
In one day, you brought everything to an end!
Now that you’re no longer here, that part of me that you completed is hollow and barren once again.
When I say this tho, I don't mean that I regret the decision that I made, to leave u, once and for all.  For
I know it was the right decision.
What I miss is the idea of u and what once was, I am lonely now and I hate this feeling that u have caused.
I no longer can hear a comforting voice
I no longer have reassurance
I can no longer roll over in the middle of the night and have someone to hold and feel safe
Not being able to watch you sleep, to softly kiss your lips and whisper "I love you" in your ear.

Time and time again, through tears u would say how sorry u were and I would forgive u
thinking this time will be better, will be different.  That day never came! 
I became numb, weak, depressed, I no longer knew who I was.
I never had piece of mind, every time the phone rang I was afraid to answer for fear of what would be on the other end.
It's hard living like that you know, it's like some has stuffed u in a plastic bag and sealed it shut!
You slowly start to suffocate and eventually u die inside!

What you never realized was that there was nothing in this world that could have caused me to turn away from u.
I would have never hurt u, left u, cheated on u.
The thought never even entered my mind,
Not even during the really bad times when I wished I could just be free of u.
I just kept hanging on, hoping and praying for something to happen, to change for the better.
I did finally get answers, they were just not what I thought they would be.
Never did I dream things would turn out this way!
I did everything I humanly knew how to, to try to help u and make things work.
I guess what they say is true, for some people, love is just not enough!
It was enough for me, just not u.

They say, what does not kill us, makes us stronger and I agree with that.
Now I am moving on, which I have been doing for some time.
I just wish I could shake this lonely feeling
I hope one day I can know again what it's like to be loved unconditionally, cherished beyond measure, and feel complete once again in every conceivable manner.
I truly look forward to that day and hopes it comes soon!

Love is stronger than anything you can imagine, it's beautiful when done the right way,
The unconditional love that u give to one person, it's what makes up our life's, what fulfills us,
It's the glue that holds our little world around us together!
One thing that I really like about love is that it can transcend anything!
So, I am not giving up!
I know that I once again can be happy and be loved by another and I so look forward to that day and hope it comes soon.
With every fiber of my being, from the furthest depths of my soul, I will find love again!